Yeah what’s up? You’re looking very
serious. I was talking to Jillian and she told me
that the theme for this week on The Biggest Loser is to face your deepest
fears. My biggest fear is losing my mom to obesity. I’m definitely not looking
forward to this conversation. It’s not gonna be easy to express my feelings
like this but I think it’s a conversation that I need to have with my
mom. It’s it’s hard to explain, but throughout the years you’ve gone on one
fad diet after another and you end up kind of putting the weight back on again
and just a bit more weight as well. My mom steadily throughout my life gained
and gained and gained and gained and I really think that’s why I gained weight.
I don’t want to see her miserable like this. You know I’m scared that if you
continue to gain weight you know you might just get really sick. And I love
you, and I want you to be there. I don’t want you to get sick.
I want you to be able to experience all the amazing things that you can’t
experience when you’re overweight. I mean you can’t come on rollercoasters with me
and dad, you can’t you know tie your shoelaces with ease, it’s hard for you.
You know you don’t you don’t have to say that to me to my face. Instead of
make me sad you just make me angry when you say that. What? I mean you don’t have
to tell me that you know you can’t do this you can’t do that,
I know I can’t do it. I mean I’ve talked to her so often
before and she knows that I really want her to lose weight and become more
healthy, but it’s kind of as if the minute I start talking to her about
these things she gets defensive and she thinks I’m criticizing her. You know
we’re making these changes in her life and I want her to know how important it
is to me that she’s making these changes with me.
Like my greatest fear is that you’re gonna you’re gonna die. I don’t want you
to get so heavy that you get sick and die. It’s a very scary thing for me to sit here and listen to you saying talking
about your fears because a mother is supposed to console her daughter and you
know take away her fears, so to be the cause of those fears is something quite
devastating. This is easily the most terrifying conversation I’ve ever had.
Everyone knows that we come with an expiration date but still to know that
your daughter is scared by the thought and she thinks it’s a very real thing
that could happen in your life it’s it’s really scary. I mean I don’t want to die.
I definitely don’t want to die. I realized that you know it’s really a
scary thing. And and I see what you’re saying you know, I really hear your fear.
And I promise you that this time it will be different and it’s not just me you’re
there to support me and we’re gonna do it together. Sunny is really the best
thing that happened ever to me in my life, and she is really not only moving
herself forward but moving me forward as well. It’s really made me feel that this
journey is going to be successful as long as we are in it together. Like I’m
just really happy that we had this conversation. Yeah. All I want is to go to
college knowing that you’re healthy and happy, that’s my one wish. I will. Yeah? Yeah definitely. Okay. I hope that the conversation that I had with her really rang true in her mind. At
this point I kind of feel like I need to accept that I’ve done everything that I
could have done to help my mom and you know maybe something that I said hit
home and she really does want to make some drastic change.